If a moment is all we are

[renewedwill]

[a couple of months had passed by since that eventful pocky day happened. and, well. jean would like to say that a lot has happened? but in all actuality, it's nothing monumental. how he feels about it, at least. he still hasn't told his mom (though, if we're being completely honest a small part of him feels like she already knows what's up by now.) he hasn't told any of his friends, and he still feels kind of awkward and weird every time the bodt's pass by their son's door when he's over.

despite all this though? none of this has changed how he feels about marco. in fact it's kind of strengthened the feelings he has for the other? and, now that we're being honest here, he was actually able to realize that he has been harboring feelings for marco for a long time. he's not sure how long, but they've been there since probably around high school.

which-- is what makes all of this frustrating. he had been hoping he would be able to progress a lot faster so that he could do things with the other. as much as marco likes to let on that he can read jean like a book, he... can do the exact same with marco. and despite how many times marco insists that he's not bothered by being unable to show public displays of affection, and things of the like? he can see that it does bother the other to some extent.

it's not like jean is uncomfortable with the idea of telling people that, "hey, i like my best friend from childhood a lot and i like kissing him" and all that shit?? because he's not ashamed of doing that. he's just.... afraid of the attention it will garner, and he doesn't want to deal with that just yet. he's.... well, he's kind of made a reputation of being one of those heterosexual guys at school, and he knows the moment he comes out as bisexual, people will continuously rib on him. and more than likely tell marco that he deserves way better than horse face over here.

he knows marco doesn't care, one way or another about all that since he told jean that he's liked him since junior high? but still. what if he does? what if he decides that jean just isn't worth it and all that he does deserve someone who isn't afraid of doing something with him in public without being scrutinized for it.

jean lets out another sigh as he rolls over on marco's bed and buries his head into marco's pillow. maybe if he stays here long enough he can suffocate himself??? he inhales and loses himself for a couple of moments in marco's scent, and then sits up.]

I'm sorry Marco; I think we should break up.

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[renewedwill]

[he groans and his hips start twitching and moving on their own when he feels marco's hot breath along his heated cock.

is the room spinning or is it because he's just super dizzy??]

[halfwaythere]

[ the answer is yes.

he doesn't tease for long before he takes the tip of his cock into his mouth and slowly lowers himself along it ]

[renewedwill]

[his fingers uncurl and curl against the sheets as he tries to get past the feeling of marco taking his whole dick like a fuckkin snack. truly, if he were a lesser man he would have come then and there. but he manages not to, thankfully, so all is well. he bites his bottom lip as he chances a glance down at his boyfriend.]

[halfwaythere]

[ focusing on horse dick

and guess who's feeling cocky (heh) and tries to take it whole!!!

guess who's now pulling off and coughing!! ]

[renewedwill]

[his eyes flutter a little before he leans forward and reaches out to pat marco on the back.] W- woah there, babe you don't have to take me like that if you can't do it.... in, uh, fact I almost just came when you were breathing on it a little while ago.

[halfwaythere]

Well, I really wanted it to be really good for you?

[renewedwill]

It's going to be good no matter what because I'm not going to be the one touching myself...

[halfwaythere]

--You're really sweet, you know that?

[renewedwill]

I'm just paying it back for all those times you were kind to me at the beginning. But, you're way more sweeter than I am.

[halfwaythere]

So, I know I just had your dick in my mouth, but I really want to kiss you...

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[renewedwill]

[he's... thinking it over.]

[renewedwill]

[and weighing out the possibilities. okay it can't be too bad. it's not like he came in marco's mouth. he'd probably draw the line at kissing him if he did that... but seeing as he hadn't, he leans over and kisses marco.]

[halfwaythere]

[ ok good he's kissing him and reaching down for his cock again with his hand ]

[renewedwill]

[moans into the kiss]

[halfwaythere]

[ breaking the kiss to whisper lightly ] Wanna touch mine?

[renewedwill]

Does a pony want a sugar cube? [without a beat] Of course.

[halfwaythere]

[ taking his hands then and guiding them to the front of his pants, where he's already hard and waiting ]

[renewedwill]

[he grasps it for a little before looking down for a couple of seconds.] You excited to see me Bodt?

[halfwaythere]

Just a banana in my pocket.

1/2

[renewedwill]

[looks unsure for a millisecond.]

[renewedwill]

Can I eat it?

[halfwaythere]

Hmm, maybe when I'm done kissing you.

[ he says before he catches his lips again, going back to stroking him ]

[renewedwill]

[his eyes flutter close as he returns the kiss. his hips move on their own beat as he does whatever he can to create friction.

it takes a few moments before he realizes he's got his own hand wrapped around marco's before he dutifully unzips his boyfriend's trousers.]

[halfwaythere]

[ hums in pleasure, pressing his hips into jean's hands ]

[renewedwill]

[snakes a hand into marco's boxers and starts touching the other the way he would himself.]