If a moment is all we are

[renewedwill]

[a couple of months had passed by since that eventful pocky day happened. and, well. jean would like to say that a lot has happened? but in all actuality, it's nothing monumental. how he feels about it, at least. he still hasn't told his mom (though, if we're being completely honest a small part of him feels like she already knows what's up by now.) he hasn't told any of his friends, and he still feels kind of awkward and weird every time the bodt's pass by their son's door when he's over.

despite all this though? none of this has changed how he feels about marco. in fact it's kind of strengthened the feelings he has for the other? and, now that we're being honest here, he was actually able to realize that he has been harboring feelings for marco for a long time. he's not sure how long, but they've been there since probably around high school.

which-- is what makes all of this frustrating. he had been hoping he would be able to progress a lot faster so that he could do things with the other. as much as marco likes to let on that he can read jean like a book, he... can do the exact same with marco. and despite how many times marco insists that he's not bothered by being unable to show public displays of affection, and things of the like? he can see that it does bother the other to some extent.

it's not like jean is uncomfortable with the idea of telling people that, "hey, i like my best friend from childhood a lot and i like kissing him" and all that shit?? because he's not ashamed of doing that. he's just.... afraid of the attention it will garner, and he doesn't want to deal with that just yet. he's.... well, he's kind of made a reputation of being one of those heterosexual guys at school, and he knows the moment he comes out as bisexual, people will continuously rib on him. and more than likely tell marco that he deserves way better than horse face over here.

he knows marco doesn't care, one way or another about all that since he told jean that he's liked him since junior high? but still. what if he does? what if he decides that jean just isn't worth it and all that he does deserve someone who isn't afraid of doing something with him in public without being scrutinized for it.

jean lets out another sigh as he rolls over on marco's bed and buries his head into marco's pillow. maybe if he stays here long enough he can suffocate himself??? he inhales and loses himself for a couple of moments in marco's scent, and then sits up.]

I'm sorry Marco; I think we should break up.

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[renewedwill]

[snakes a hand into marco's boxers and starts touching the other the way he would himself.]

[halfwaythere]

[ so super fast so mama and papa and baby bodt don't know that a horse is coming? ]

[renewedwill]

[maybe.....]

[halfwaythere]

[ not like baby bodt is any better now that jean is touching him ]

[renewedwill]

[he moans as he moves his hips reflexively.] m'about to cum

[halfwaythere]

S-same...

[ sucking a jean's neck as he moves his hand faster ]

[renewedwill]

[he lets a moan slip out as he continues to rub against marco.]

[halfwaythere]

[ kiss is getting sloppier as he feels his own orgasm start to come. his hand is moving faster and he's all but panting into the kiss ]

[renewedwill]

[jean will take this moment to lewdly suck on marco's tongue. his hands slide up the other's arms, scrambling to find something to hold on to. to cling to. and before he knows it-- he's coming right into marco's hand.]

[halfwaythere]

[ feeling jean suck on his tongue and come against his hand is enough to push marco over the edge as he comes himself, making a mess of themselves here ]

[renewedwill]

[a few minutes after he came, he pulls away from marco and rests his head on his shoulder. he feels so sated, he could probably fall asleep right here.]

[halfwaythere]

[ turning his head to press a couple of kisses to the side of his head ]

We should... clean ourselves up... soon.

[renewedwill]

[he murmurs incoherently as he rubs his head against marco's shoulder] or we could just sleep now

[halfwaythere]

I mean, if you want to sleep with your hand in my pants and our come on each other when my parents get home innnn... [ turning his head ] an hour?

[renewedwill]

you make it sound like a horrible idea.

1/2

[halfwaythere]

I would rather not risk losing the privilege of sleeping with you every night if my parents find out we're not so innocent anymore...

[ pausing as he thinks ]

[halfwaythere]

--Wanna eat my banana in the shower?

[renewedwill]

[forgive him bc his brain is a puddle of goo still]

But...wouldn't it get soggy?

[halfwaythere]

[ laughs and just. gives him a kiss

with tongue. ]

Not the banana I was talking about.

[ and oh, pulling away

walking towards the shower

and would you look at that

there goes his shirt ]

[renewedwill]

[he's too confused to even really return the kiss. he's still trying to wrap his mind over which banana his boyfriend is talking about.

...

...

...

!!!

of course watching him walk away stripping his clothes kind of helps fill the pieces in.

and would you look at that his boner returns

he scrambles to get to his feet and follow after his boyfriend's hot ass]

[halfwaythere]

[ speaking of hot ass

guess who, in waiting for jean's brain to catch up, has managed to strip all the way and is just testing the shower water, waiting for it to warm up ]

Oh, I was wondering if you were going to catch up.

1/2

[renewedwill]

[he's gonna take this moment to appreciate marco's hot bod.]

[renewedwill]

[okay kirstein play it cool, be smooth. you got this.]

Hey it's not my fault you were talking to me about bananas while my brain was still goop!

[and with that he throws his shirt at marco]

[halfwaythere]

Not my fault you couldn't remember anything from right before your hands were on my dick.

[ lets the shirt him and just, gonna smell it, right in front of jean ]

[renewedwill]

[he throws his hands up in the air] Because you made me come!!! Your brain would be goop too if you had been waiting for this sort of thing to happen, and actually--

[he blinks as he stares at the other not so subtly inhale his shirt.]

Actually.....

[what... was he even mad about??? he can't even remember. the only thing that takes precedence right now is how hard his dick is throbbing. it... actually really fucking hurts. he snaps out of his trance with a small head shake.]

Actually what were you talking about bananas? Because mine is starting to hurt and you're really hot and get in the shower Bodt before that shit goes cold.