If a moment is all we are

[renewedwill]

[a couple of months had passed by since that eventful pocky day happened. and, well. jean would like to say that a lot has happened? but in all actuality, it's nothing monumental. how he feels about it, at least. he still hasn't told his mom (though, if we're being completely honest a small part of him feels like she already knows what's up by now.) he hasn't told any of his friends, and he still feels kind of awkward and weird every time the bodt's pass by their son's door when he's over.

despite all this though? none of this has changed how he feels about marco. in fact it's kind of strengthened the feelings he has for the other? and, now that we're being honest here, he was actually able to realize that he has been harboring feelings for marco for a long time. he's not sure how long, but they've been there since probably around high school.

which-- is what makes all of this frustrating. he had been hoping he would be able to progress a lot faster so that he could do things with the other. as much as marco likes to let on that he can read jean like a book, he... can do the exact same with marco. and despite how many times marco insists that he's not bothered by being unable to show public displays of affection, and things of the like? he can see that it does bother the other to some extent.

it's not like jean is uncomfortable with the idea of telling people that, "hey, i like my best friend from childhood a lot and i like kissing him" and all that shit?? because he's not ashamed of doing that. he's just.... afraid of the attention it will garner, and he doesn't want to deal with that just yet. he's.... well, he's kind of made a reputation of being one of those heterosexual guys at school, and he knows the moment he comes out as bisexual, people will continuously rib on him. and more than likely tell marco that he deserves way better than horse face over here.

he knows marco doesn't care, one way or another about all that since he told jean that he's liked him since junior high? but still. what if he does? what if he decides that jean just isn't worth it and all that he does deserve someone who isn't afraid of doing something with him in public without being scrutinized for it.

jean lets out another sigh as he rolls over on marco's bed and buries his head into marco's pillow. maybe if he stays here long enough he can suffocate himself??? he inhales and loses himself for a couple of moments in marco's scent, and then sits up.]

I'm sorry Marco; I think we should break up.

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[halfwaythere]

[ not like the sounds marco are making are any indication that jean is doing a bad job

nope

quite the opposite ]

[renewedwill]

[okok once he feels like he's got marco's dick where he wants it in his mouth he tentatively starts moving his head. he presses his tongue against the sides of it as he suckles against it lightly.

after a few minutes he starts groping and fondling marco's balls]

[halfwaythere]

[ and marco is gasping and slipping against the wet floor but it's all so good and sorry your boyfriend is a virgin jean because ] Jean... Jean... I'm close--!

[renewedwill]

[he mumbles very incoherently, but hopefully the vibrations help.

he'll also continue to touch whatever he can that doesn't fit in his mouth.]

[halfwaythere]

[ tugging at his head, because he's close and oh god what if jean isn't ready to get cum in hi--

whoops

too late

coming with a loud moan of jean's name ]

[renewedwill]

[startled with the suddenly surprising amount of cum and dick in his mouth it all becomes too much and he starts gagging.

is this?? is this how he dies?

jesus christ, god is going to judge him so hard as he sends jean down to hell]

[halfwaythere]

[ and he's gonna get a high five from the devil

"so. you're the died choking on your boyfriend's jizz?"

"uh. yeah?"

"nice"




meanwhile marco is just sagging against the wall, sated like holy shit ]

[renewedwill]

[i hope you don't mind as he uhhhh just kinda.... spits it all out in the shower.

you know what sounds good right now??? a nap... yeah... lets just... pass out in the shower.







okay not really passing out, he's just gonna sit down and lean against one side of the wall and close his eyes a little.]

[halfwaythere]

[ don't mind if he just sits there next to him and starts kissing his cheek, trying to bring him back to the living ]

[renewedwill]

[this face.

for a good five minutes.]

[renewedwill]

[and then he returns the kiss, only to pull back and offer marco this face in return.]

N- Next time?? Give me better warning? I definitely saw a bright light and my ma-maw and pa-paw beckoning me closer to it.

[halfwaythere]

Y-yeah, sorry about that!

[ pats his cheek and pulls him back up ]

Should we get out of the shower now? I think my parents should be back soon.

1/2

[renewedwill]

[sneaks a quick peck to the other's cheek before he reaches over to turn the shower off. it's mostly gross lukewarm (but practically cold) water anyhow.] Yeah....

[renewedwill]

[he's about to move to get out of the shower, but then stops all together when he realizes he's... going to have to look at them.... in the eyes.... after he sucked their son off.... in the shower.... yeah....

jean.exe has stopped working.]

[halfwaythere]

[ he seems to sense this and turns to look at jean, waving a hand in front of his face ]

You alright there?

[renewedwill]

I... [he slumps forward and rests his head on marco's wet shoulder] m'gonna have to look at your parents in the eyes after this.

[halfwaythere]

...Jean, are you going to make the fact we had sex more awkward than it has to be?

[renewedwill]

But! They trusted me to take care of you and your... purity! Marco!!! [he pulls back and gestures wildly. in fact it's almost a surprise that he didn't smack the other whilst doing so.]

[halfwaythere]

[ reaches up to pinch his nose ]

They expected us to do something, Jean.

[renewedwill]

[this just causes jean to sputter indignantly.] You-- what? Of course they expected us to do something, like rough house a little too much which might have led to a heavy make out session, or something!! But, this?!

[halfwaythere]

[ walks to his dresser and reaches into his underwear drawer and pulls out a box ]

This is what my dad gave me a couple weeks ago.

[ chunks it at him

surprise, it's condoms ]

[renewedwill]

[he blinks in confusion as he's hit with a pack of condoms.] But you just-- you said... you said we would lose bed sharing privileges if they found out!

[halfwaythere]

That was a few months ago...? I think they've loosened up since then.

So long as we're careful and you know... don't have sex when they're home, we should be fine.

[renewedwill]

[jean bites his lip apprehensively.] Really? [he sighs] I don't know... it just... you're their baby, and I'm the one who took that.... [he gestures] Are you going to uh-- tell them?

[halfwaythere]

They can't expect me to be pure forever, not when I'm dating someone I love.

[ but for the first time in this conversation he flusters ] Not if they don't ask!