chesedonia | my church offers no absolution.

[sousuke wasn't exactly the religious type. in fact it was kind of hard when he "laid in bed with another man." but he still went out of obligation to his family. on one hand it was kind of cleansing, but on the other he felt awkwardly out of place. especially when the priest would go off about unholy things in his sermon.

once mass was over he would always end up in a weird head space. he usually wandered around shady places and went in to and out of different seedy bars late at night in the red district. because of how he looked and his build he wasn't carded much at all to get in. though of course bartenders were on a whole different playing level. so he rarely got to order anything alcoholic in the bars he did go into. but at least he was in an area that got to take his mind off of things.

he sipped from his glass of water solemnly as he focused on those around him. the group to his left were celebrating a promotion, and the one to his right was celebrating someone finally coming to age.]